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I Miss The Moment of Student Life

2009-10-07T23:47:00.000-07:00

I realize now that working life feel not so good. I really miss the moment of student life. Dulu masa belajar rasa tak sabar nak abis belajar..Nak keja & nak dpt duit sendiri. Tp rupanya tak seronok n enjoy langsung masuk ke dunia pekerjaan ni. Masa belajar tension kejap jer tp bler keja ni tensen memanjang. huhu. Feel regret lorr when in Uitm tak belajar bersungguh-sungguh & not appreciate time sebaik mungkin. assignment buat sambil lewa, ponteng kelas, tak bagi tumpuan masa lecture, test buat main2...huhu. If i could turn back the time, I will use that opportunity as best as i can. I miss my roomiest - ayda, cik b, era, kak dyl and other my classmates - Ken, Kak Azie, Cuak, Azwa, Ina, Haikal dll. Rindu la lepak lepas kelas kat kedai kopi, pakli, old town, sacc and at sec 7. Rindu nak pi karaoke..huhahuha, gelak2, shopping, jalan2 dgn uol...Rindu nak buat discussion untuk assignment & presentation. Rindu nak gossiping...Uol cheer up my life. I feel really happy and enjoyable that time. I know semua tuh tak buleh jadi macam dulu balik..All already have their own life and own route..Life must go on. We have to accept eventhough it's hard. I miss u guys so much. take care. All the memories will be always in my heart & my mind. I will never forget it! All the best in whateva uol doing yah..mmmuuahh..xoxo.

Working Life Dot..Dot..Dot..

2009-10-05T01:28:00.000-07:00

Hmm...Lamanyer tak menulis blog...nak tulis byk benda & nak story kat blog ni tapi donno how to start lorr...What can i said here is now, my life is totally change from student life to working life..Lagi 2 weeks abis la tempoh my probation (6 Month) at Tenaga Switchgear Sdn Bhd (subsidiary TNB), Kota Damansara. I hope management bagi me confirm n also increment la kan. Masuk TSG 20 April 2009. I'm working at TSG as Corporate Service Executive. My task is like Public Relations. Kira related la dgn aper yang i studied at Uitm. TSG is a small organisation. Tak ramai staff. If I'm not mistaken only 90 staff in TSG.

Working here ok la. Tak banyak keja. Stress pon tak teruk sgt. Tapi the main problem keja sini is kebanyakan staf TSG suker buat keja last minute. Susah betul nak kejar submit report kerr aper. biler ada salah they will blame us back..Hmm biasalah lumrah. sabor ajalah kan. When bz nak kejar deadline sampai lewat mlm balik...When have an events that i have to handle mmg penat gaklah kan. tapi i've more enjoyed handle an events compare to do a report. TSG liked to participated in any awards/competition or involved in total quality management activities like Quality Management Excellence Award, Anugerah Kualiti Presiden TNB etc. Honestly to said that working with malay company is more relax compare to chinese company or multinational company. Bagus jugak keja company kecil coz kebajikan pekerja dijaga dengan baik and banyak exposure can gain here. My department is still new and kira i the pioneer. At first tu mmg a bit confused la kan coz donno where is the scope of my task in TSG. But since my Head of Unit, En Zulhilmee came into TSG baru terurus skit la. Jenuh gak dulu handle sowang2. Nasib baik En Zul banyak help me.

Sekarang ni baru terasa la susah nak cari duit. Totally I've change after working which is i can manage my salary well. Every month I will give to my parent RM 300, Toll and Petrol RM600, Shopping Rm500.... Kalo dulu masa daddy bg duit tak pnah cukup. Abis jerr mintak abis jerr mintak. bukan senang nak cari duit. Tu pon me belum terasa nak bayar sewa umah, elektrik, astro, duit keta, etc. if bayar tu semua maknanya takder la duit saving. Baju raya pon skrg kena beli sndiri. Mengigil gak nak kena bayar sendiri.huhuhu.

Sometimes i feel happy working here but sometimes feel not happy. Maybe becoz my heart does not belong in this area. Since i kids my ambitious is to be tv personality. Before i join TSG, I've got an offer to be tv presenter for RTM (new program - parenting). They offered me with good payment. But it is a contract. TSG offered me permanent but the salary not so good larr. I have to let go the offer from RTM becoz of my parents don't like me to be in a glamourous line. Walaupon hati berat nak lepaskan my dream apakan daya restu ibu bapa penting. Mungkin ini yang terbaik untuk i. I still wish my parent will blessing me to achieve my dream to be TV Personality. And i will never give up to achieve my dreams one day. InsyaAllah.

Itu lah sahaja yang i dapat share mengenai my life skrgnie. I hope my life will be smooth and happy ending. Amin.

Symbol of Love

2009-01-04T23:41:00.000-08:00

Heyya...There are many types of love in our life. So, uol try to figure it out which one is uol be categorized in these symbol of love and try to understand what the meaning of love symbol below these:

GOODBYE 2008 & WELCOME 2009!!

2008-12-30T23:43:00.000-08:00

Cepatnya masa berlalu..Masa dan tahun sering bersilih ganti. Selamat tinggal tahun 2008 dan selamat datang pula tahun 2009. Pada tahun 2008, pelbagai dugaan dan cabaran yang terpaksa ditempuhi namun alhamdulillah semua liku-liku itu dapat di atasi dan diharungi dengan penuh kesabaran.

Antaranya, tension dengan pelbagai kerenah pensyarah bagi memuaskan ati mereka dalam menyiapkan assignment yang diberi, dapat menyaksikan angin gelora dan sedikit pertelingkahan di antara rakan-rakan kelas, untuk mendapat kata sepakat daripada satu kelas ataupun sesama ahli kumpulan masing-masing bukannya mudah dan perang mulut juga tercetus serta macam-macam lagi la insiden yang berlaku di saat-saat akhir semester kami di Fakulti Komunikasi & Pengajian Media, Uitm Shah Alam. Namun begitu, terdapat juga banyak kenangan manis pada tahun 2008. Kami sekelas banyak meluangkan masa bersama maklumlah kami tahu selepas tamat belajar bukan mudah lagi kami dapat berkumpul semua lagi. Kami mengunakan sebaik mungkin masa yang ada untuk pergi karaoke, lepak, berjalan-jalan, beriadah, bergosip, bergelak tawa dan sebagainya. Kini, setelah tamat belajar masing-masing membawa haluan jalan sendiri. Susah untuk berjumpa dan berkumpul ramai-ramai lagi seperti dulu. Apakan daya itu lah lumrah kehidupan yang terpaksa di lalui oleh semua orang. Setiap pertemuan pasti akan ada perpisahan. Hanya kenangan yang akan terpahat dan dikenang bersama pensyarah dan rakan-rakan yang saya kenali selama 5 tahun di Uitm. "Masscommers dan Uitm tetap di hati ku sentiasa".

Selain itu, keluarga saya juga terpaksa melalui hari-hari yang sedih dan duka dimana abang saya putus tunang di saat masa lagi sebulan lebih sahaja hari pernikahannya tiba. Ia cukup memberi kesan yang cukup mendalam kepada seluruh ahli keluarga dan saudara mara saya dalam menerima berita itu kerana sudah banyak persiapan yang telah dilakukan. Setiap hari saya terpaksa memendam perasaan tatkala melihat abang yang hanya mampu menyimpan perasaan sedihnya seorang diri. Melayan lagu-lagu kecewa dan sedih sambil menyanyi dan bermain organ. Hati adik mana yang tidak tersentuh melihat abang tersayang dalam keadaan kemurungan dan kedukaan. Itulah dikatakan jodoh. Kita hanya mampu merancang tapi tuhan yang tentukan semuanya. Kita sebagai manusia hanya mampu redha dan terima dengan hati yang terbuka walau susah untuk menerima hakikat sebenarnya. Namun, kita pegang bahawa setiap yang berlaku ada hikmahnya. Walaubagaimanapun, keluarga saya kembali ceria dan gembira dengan berita yang abang saya bawa bahawa beliau kini mempunyai penganti. Bagi saya sekeluarga penganti abang ini seorang yang baik, sederhana dan yang penting saya dapat lihat teman baru abangni cukup menyayangi abang dan dapat menjaga abang kelak. Tuhan Maha Adil. "Orang baik untuk orang yang baik".Alhamdullilah. Saya doakan abang akan bahagia hingga ke akhir hayat bersama dengan Kak Zaza. Amin.

Saya sendiri juga tidak dapat lari daripada masalah. Hmm, biasalah masalah cinta. Ada pasang surutnya. Kadangkala bahagia..Kadangkala berduka...Adat bercinta..Manada manusia yang sempurna. Pasti akan ada kesilapan dan kesalahan yang dilakukan. Saya ini pula kalau sudah menyayangi dan mencintai orang hati saya akan tertutup untuk orang lain. Saya seorang yang serius dan begitu komited dalam sesebuah perhubungan. Ntahlah saya tak paham hubungan saya dengan si dia yang saya kenali 2 tahun ni. Bukan mudah kita nak paham orang dan bukan mudah orang nak paham kita juga. Saya begitu kecewa dan sedih hubungan yang saya bina musnah begitu sahaja. Segala kenangan manis, pahit, kongsi segala suka dan duka punah dengan mudah. Tiada masalah yang tiada penyelesaian. Tapi si dia yang sukar untuk dibawa berbincang seperti ingin lari daripada masalah. Mula-mula saya begitu sukar untuk menerima perpisahan ini. Jiwa kacau, kemurungan, menangis tak terkata, kesedihan tak terhingga...Namun, kini alhamdulillah saya dapat menerimanya sedikit demi sedikit. Itupun atas dorongan mama, daddy, abang, adik dan rakan-rakan baik. Saya dengan si dia masih berhubungan baik dan kadangkala ada berjumpa. Kami tidak bermusuhan atau berdendam. Saya tahu we are still feel to each other tapi ego yang menebal dalam diri masing-masing. Dua-dua sudah penat dan letih asyik bergaduh jerr biler sentiasa bersama. Mungkin dengan cara ini memberi kami masa untuk berfikir apa yang baik dan buruk serta dapat pikir kelemahan diri. hmm, macamni la kita serahkan pada Allah s.w.t. Ada jodoh takkan kemana.

Tatkala munculnya tahun baru setiap individu pasti akan ada azam baru. Begitu juga dengan saya yang menanam azam dan angan-angan pada tahun baru 2009. Saya baru sahaja tamat belajar dan keputusan peperiksaan baru sahaja dapat. Alhamdullilah saya lulus semua subjek. Walaupun saya tidak berapa berpuas ati dengan keputusan itu namun syukur saya dapat selesai menamatkan pembelajaran saya dalam Ijazah Sarjana Muda Komunikasi Dan Pengajian Media (Perhubungan Awam) selama 2 tahun. Tahun 2009 pasti begitu banyak cabaran dan dugaan yang terpaksa saya tempuhi dan hadapi. Namun, Insyaallah akan saya hadapinya dengan senyuman :) Dengan ura-ura mengatakan ekonomi pada tahun 2009 akan meleset. Jadi, ini merisaukan saya dan rakan-rakan saya yang kini sedang memburu pekerjaan. Harapan saya moga saya dan rakan-rakan yang lain akan mendapat pekerjaan yang baik dan stabil. Saya juga mengharapkan kehidupan saya sekeluarga dalam keadaan yang baik, diberikan rezeki yang murah dan sentiasa dalam keadaan sihat sejahtera hendaknya.

Saya juga mendoakan moga Allah memberi saya sekeluarga kebahagiaan dan kejayaan di dunia dan akhirat. Mudah-mudahan tuhan memberi keberkatan dan kerahmatan lagi kepada saya pada tahun yang lepas dan tahun baru yang mendatang ini. Amin. Saya juga berazam untuk membeli sebuah kereta hasil titik peluh saya sendiri dan saya juga ingin memberi sedikit duit gaji saya kepada kedua ibu bapa saya dan abah mak sebagai mengenang jasa mereka dan kasih sayang mereka yang tidak bersyarat terhadap saya selama 23 tahun. Saya juga berharap saya akan menjadi wanita yang solehah, dihormati, dan dihargai. Selain itu, saya ingin menjadi wanita yang kuat dari segi mental dan fizikal serta tabah dan sabar dalam mengharungi liku-liku kehidupan yang penuh pancaroba.

Akhir sekali, saya ingin mengucapkan Selamat Menyambut Tahun Baru 2009. Hadapilah tahun 2009 dengan tenang dan sabar. Jangan mudah melatah dan mengalah dengan masalah yang akan mendatang. Dugaan yang diberi kepada kita adalah kerna Allah ingin melihat sejauhmana hambaNya dapat menerimanya dengan penuh kesabaran. Allah hanya menguji kepada hamba yang Dia sayang. Oleh itu, redha dengan apapun yang bakal menimpa kita kelak.

Dedicated Especially For Kenneth Tugang

2008-12-14T12:43:00.000-08:00

I've read this poem in this one site and it is meaningful for me. so, i want to give this special poem just for my beloved friend, Kenneth.

Goodbye My Dearest Friend by Leilani Hermosa Petersen

The hardest part of any friendship is when it is time to say goodbye,
And even though i wish i could make u stay,
I know i gotta let u spread ur wings and fly.

For life is a journey that needs to be travelled
And I am certain you'd make it through,
I just want u to know and never forget
That i will surely miss u.

So follow ur heart and never give up,
As dreams and wishes do come true,
For I know that someday we'll meet again,
So, never forget i will be praying for u.

Ken, i know him for 5 years. erm, 3 years for Diploma and 2 years for Degree. He is my classmates since Diploma Masscomm at Uitm Arau. But i started close with him when we continue study in Degree Masscomm major in Public Relations and the same time he still be my classmates. Besides, in these 2 years in PR, he is my groupmate too. At first i thought mcm dier ni takleh masuk jd satu kepala la kan with me masa group dgn Ken ni..once, we work and be in one team i'll started knew and noticed that he is nice man, gentlemen, hot, cute, baik hati, fresh, fleksibel, kenyal, bergetah (tiru words Kak Dilla.hihihi). tapi sapa nak kwn dgn ken kena tahan skit lah mulut dier..ckp main lepas,laser skit la..hihi.

We spend a lot of time together and also with other our team member(Kak Dilla, Kak Azie and Cik B) which we called group DELIMA. Why we called it as DELIMA because our group member have 5 people.Cik B yang bagi nama grup kami..erm, kami ni kan byk sgt sessi perjumpaan di antara kami..meetingla ..grup discussion la.kalah grup2 yang lain dlm kelas..dorg pon jarang jumpa slalu nak diskas psl assignment sgt mcm kiteorgni..but mostly we all ni byk commercial break lah kan biler berjumpa..gossip dulu, menyanyi dulu, bertekak dulu then baru start buat keja kan..tu yg slalu kena hentam dgn Dr Kiran..grup yng paling lembap la..grup tido la...mcm2 kan kiter kena but DELIMA maintain unite and strong..

After kelas jerr mesti we will have lunch together...tapi sumtime ader sorang nak mkn sec 7 la...ader yg nak sec 2 la..ader nak mkn dalam uitm je lah..yg besh about us walau berlainan pendapat or slisih paham after that kami akan bagi kata sepakat sama then we will be ok back.kami jugak mempunyai aktiviti minat yg sama iaitu KARAOKE and JALAN-JALAN.melalak tu takyah ckp la..pantang tgk mikrofon..yg takleh menolak biler ajak p nyanyi of course la kak azi n kak dilla...excited sungguh biler ajak p karaoke..si ken lak sker kaco kami biler nyanyi dgn buat sorang sumbang dier...fun sgt and honestly to said that i really enjoy with them each and every moment walaupun mcm2 ragam n kerenah nak melayan my beloved delima ni.dgn tu semua la yg buat kami jd more closer.

Percutian kami berlima ke Melaka masa ujung2 semester terakhir kami even though we spend there only 1 nite but it really memorable and meaningful for me.after this it is hard for us nak berkumpul dan berjumpa bersama mcm 2thn nie.masing2 dah ader kehidupan sendiri..sibuk dgn career then pas kawin lagi lah susah mau ketemu lagi yerr.tambahan pulak si Kenneth akan pulang ke kampung halamannya, Miri Sarawak esok on 16 Dec 08..at least my friends lain still near with me and kira senang la nak jumpa..just text a msg/call set a date n venue ajak nak jumpa..tapi KENNETH?wuarghhhh, jauh....tataw cmner nak ckp perasaan sayu, sebak, pilu and terlampau sedih teramat-amat sgt di ats pemergian ken..huhu.eh, pemergian lak?tu mcm sesuai utk org dah mati kan...hehehe.just kiddin yah.kami dah paksa dier suwuh keja kat sini jerr tapi apakan daya parent dier nak dier keja kat sana.we have to accept it even though is hard.

I akan merindui gelak tawa u, rindu u gaduh dgn Kak Dila n rindu tgk u sentap dgn kak dilla la especially ;) , rindu u sakat/usik i n yg lain, rindu u buat lawak, rindu u amik gambar2 muka i n yg lain biler time buruk n huduh..i pon taw u akan rindu gelak i yang kuat and lawak i ni kan..;) after ni susahla anak-anak (kak azi as anak sulong, cik b anak tgh n i as anak bongsu yg sker tido jerr) nak menyakat n usik u as bapak n kak dila as mak..but u slalu tak ngaku as bapak kan..owh nk lepaskan tjwb u..hihihi.i akan ingat yg u slalu kata, "tak buleh la sumbang mahramla. mana leh anak bercinta dgn mak...".hahahahaha.ntahla, napa la kiter terpaksa berpisah kan..but i try to be strong n terima nyer..tapi Ken janji dgn i k keep in touch always..jgn sesekali lupa i and kenangan terindah kiter bersama..cewah, jiwang lak..ahaks.actually, there are so many i want to write about u and our memories masa belajar ni tapi tu lah kan sampai sok pun tak abis i rasa..hihi.

Ken, thank u so much for being such a good friend. i really appreciate this wonderful friendships that we have and i hope this friendships will remain till the end of our life. I'm sorry if sepanjang kiter berkawan ni ader kata-kata i ker, tingkah laku i ke yang menyinggung perasaan u ok. Aper-aper pun u r the best as a friend.It's hard to get a friends like u.huhuhu.:(

I'll promise i will never forget u.u will always be in my mind n my heart.walaupon i glamour satu hari nnt i ttp akan ingat u taw..;) Ken, wishing u all da best in wateva u do ok.hope u achieve what u want ok.lagi satu kawin jgn lupa jemput..bgtaw awal then i amik cuti p sana nnt.if i kawin, i jemput u tapi wajib dtg taw walaupon buat kat Kedah.hihihi.take care always, my dear.like kak dilla always said I Sayang U:) I'M GONNA MISS U DAMN SO MUCH, KEN!!!!FRIENDS FOREVER!!!Lagi satu bapaknyer sentot yah, pesanan penaja nie i nak ckp, see u in HELL!!hehehehe ;p

WHAT WILL UOL DO IF U R IN .................................???

2008-12-10T10:59:00.000-08:00

Hello Uol! i would like to share with uol what i will do if I'm in broken heart with someone i love, frustrated, stress about assignment, tension about exam, depress, sad/down, boring, lonely.....

1) cried, cried and cried
2) sleeping
3) watching tv especially layan citer P.Ramlee
4) tgk wayang dgn my friends and sis
5) window shopping
6) bawa keta sorang2
7) lepak dgn lin and tini kat asian cafe, subang dari kul 11pm til 4 am
8) contact back my old frens
9) kuar jalan2 dgn adeq
10) call my mum and luahkan perasaan to her
11) went for a holiday
12) jogging and swimming
13) facebook, friendster and chatting
14) naik buaian kat playground sebelah umah i jerr
15) layan lagu jiwang
16) karaoke
17) cooking
18) pi fish spa dgn kak dilla, ken and kak azi at plaza alam sentral
19) clubbing, partying and dancing
20) share the problem with my besfrens. jgn simpan2 k.
21) baca magazines
22) termenung mengenang masa depan and kenangan lama
23) borak2 and gosip with my girlfriends
24) jgn layan perasaan and avoid dok sorang2
25) lepak..lepak..and lepak
26) bak kata haikal yer, CHILL LA!hehehe
27) bergayut telefon
28) banyakkan bersabar, be strong and redha dgn ketentuan dari Nya
29) jgn ikut ati/perasaan and belajar menerima hakikat!
30) ubat yang paling mujarab nak atasi those problem is semayang banyak2, minta doa, berzikir, berselawat n baca al-quran :)

if uol ader nak share and add aper2 dgn i aper uol akan buat if uol dalam situation yang i perkatakan, silakan yer...ingatla setiap yang berlaku ader hikmah.tiada benda yang tiada penyelesaiannya..hadapinya dgn senyuman ok..:) Adios!

My Life is Boring!

2008-12-10T03:01:00.000-08:00

erm, lamanyer tak post anything in my blog. i'm not a good writer. but, actually byk i would like to express my feelings in here tapi malas jerr nak menaip..huhu.ni pon sebab ader fan kan nak tgk penulisan i dalam blog nie..dier la encourage i..tuh yg tulis ni..hehehe.anyway, i've just finished my study. while waiting for my final exam result erm maybe next week kot kuar, skrg ni adala gak mencari keja skit2..takutnyer result nak kuar.hopefully, pointer naik and clear paper.amin.besides, i've went for an audition for pesona nona and also interview for broadcast journalist at sri pentas TV3. what a wonderful experienced.i donno whether i've got that or not..byk persaingan and i really donno what criteria that they need and want but i already tried my best as i've can.if dapat is my rezeki la kan..if tak dpt maybe my rezeki at other places.but i won't give up to achieve my dreams to be a TV Personality :)

i'm quite boring stay at home...eat, sleep, watching tv, surf internet, chatting, sometime cooks..arghh, bosan sgt..huhu.my friends lak smua dah balik umah masing2..so, takderla aktiviti menarik yg dapat dibuat coz dorg takder..on weekends jer kuar skrg dgn adeq..tgk wayang, window shopping, mkn luar...sebab adeq practical now kat Kota Damansara..dgn keta takder lagi la bosan..dgn raining jerr skrg ni, nak kuar pon tak besh..i also feel lonely..huhu.stay at home doing nothing buat i teringat-ingat si dia and our memories :(

i can't wait to meet my good friends, my lover, my mengong, my advisor/cauncellor coming back to Malaysia next weeks.so, nnt tak la bosan lg my life..hihihi ;) "oi mengong cepat la balik..."hahahahaha ;p actually, worry gak keja tak dpt lagi..kak dilla dah keja dah.huhu.tapi takper la..i need a break..nak pi bercuti and enjoy dulu..p beach, meronggeng, swimming pool, golfing, spa....erm..beshnyer...tak sabar la..nak release segala kekusutan di kepala n ati ni.end of december la baru kiter pikir pasal keja seriously...skrg kiter enjoy dulu!

erm, nak tulis per lagi ek..ha?psl raya haji this year..nasib baikla ader family pakcik..raya dgn dorg. dgn sakat n usikan oleh cousin i abg najib and abg ihkram..ilang kesdihan tuh gak..kalo tak mesti lagi raser sebak and sayu raya jauh pada mum n dad..kalo tak sebab adeq mmg balik kedah dah hari tuh.dier lak cuti sehari kan..sayu jerr dgr takbir raya..teringat mama n daddy, abah n mak..huhu.layan drama melayu jerr mlm raya n pagi raya tuh..i kan melodramatic kan bak kata mengong i tuh..hehehehe.mcmner lah kan org yang duduk n belajar overseas berjauhan dari org2 yg mereka syg..lagi sdih..erm, yeyeyeye.sok adeq cuti.bday sultan selangor tak silap..yahuu, my parent lak will coming back on christmas nnt..i have to kemas2 la umah nie...malasnyer..umah dah jadi mcm tongkah pecah dah nie..takder sapa ka nak tlg i kemas umah...huhu.

i think tataw dah nak melalut aper kat sini lagi..ketandusan idea..:) so, hingga kiter berjumpa lagi yerr dgn paparan luahan perasaan yg cukup menarik di masa akan dtg.a bientot!au revoir!

How Could You?

2008-12-10T00:34:00.000-08:00

dulu, if i lapar ader someone buy foods for me..dulu, if i sakit ader org bring me to the clinic..dulu, if i boring ader org bawa i p jalan2..dulu, if i sdih or down ader org yang cheer me up..dulu, if i cried ader someone yg hugs me and lean me a shoulder to cried.dulu, if i majuk ader org pujuk...dulu, if i need someone to talk, ader someone yg akan dgr..but now all GONE!!GONE easier just like that..quite terkilan coz almost 2 years tetiba kecundang mcm tuh jerr.we've been through together susah, senang, suka, duka bersama..but suddenly now musnah, punah semudah itu..i malas sgt nak kenal laki lain and nak start all over it again dari mula.I still frustrated, down & sad..it's hard for me to accept it coz i really love him..

i only have one heart..in my heart only have him :'( but at the same time i redha..tak semua apa yg kiter harap & inginkan dlm dunia ni kiter akan dapat..why this could happen to me?i ni truk sgt ka...can't u see my sacrifice, my care and my love to u?takder sifat perikemanusiaan..belas kasihan langsung..what kind of man is that?i know i'm not perfect too.i aways create a problem in our relationships.i always hurt ur feelings.but i still ada sifat perikemanusiaan..i takkan sesekali buang u trus mcm tuh..i always try to be the best women in ur heart..i want u happy to be with me..what's wrong with me...besar sgt ka salah i...why it's hard for u to accept my forgiveness?why u react like that to me? u have someone else now?how dare u broke my heart?u forget all ur swear n promises to me that u will love n care me til the end of ur life..lidah tak bertulang...janji-janji manis like lagu aishah..

i ajak untuk bawa berbincang but u give me many excuse and try to avoid seeing me.tiada benda yang tiada jalan penyelesaian.tapi u seem like want to ran away from me.seolah nak lepaskan t/jwb u..how could u?tergamak buat mcm tuh kat i...sdgkan u cintakan i sgt2, i can see through ur eyes and touch..eyes can't lies..where is ur love to me goes?only Allah knows how i feel..luaran nmpk i happy but deep inside my heart it really hurt me.i pretend to be like i'm ok but it is not.u mcm put all the blame on me saja. i know the way i treat u so bad..i keras kepala, degil, ego, kurang ajar dgn u...peristiwa lama buat i berubah jd mcm tuh..i taknak laki pijak kepala i & amik kesempatan ke ats kelembutan n kelemahan i..but i always try to change perangai buruk i.i dah berubah utk u.tapi i sad u tak nmpk all that.u seolah hanya nmpk keburukan i saja.i know u a nice man, the way u care bout me, i know u really love me..kiter slalu gaduh truk tapi sekejap jer then kiter akan berbaik balik..tapi skrg napa mcm takder jalan & ssh utk kiter berbaik smula.

i still remembered u propose me to be as ur wife..u know how happy i am that time..eventhough i'm not ready for a commitment but i really love u that's why i accept ur propose. we've planned that we will get marry end of next year.but now is it tinggal kenangan & angan-angan saja?it is true, kiter hanya mampu merancang tapi tuhan menentukan segalanya..takdir penentu segalanya..ajal, maut, jodoh, pertemuan, perpisahan semua ditangan tuhan.i confused with u..tak paham perangai u yg pelik..u ader msg i ckp i miss u..u ader antar mms pic u..hantar emoticon kiss/love la...ader msg u ckp u still luv me..ader msg u bg u nak antar rombongan nak meminang i la hr tuh..then u snyap lak..adakah u hanya pmainkan n pbodokan i jerr dgn ur words tuh..?saja nak bg i excited n syok sowang2? saja nak memalukan i kat my parent, family n relatives biler i sampaikan kat dorg yg u nak nikah dgn i pdhal u tak bermaksud pon?u know my family really like u n restu hubungan kiter..not easy my dad want to give a green light.tapi u lak yg buat taik dgn i..stop giving me hope if u didnt meant it.jgn mempermainkan perasaan org & aniayai org kerana tuhan maha adil.u will get that back if u hurt people feelings.

honestly, i betul2 terasa teramat sgt kehilangan u..i try to be strong but i can't..namun, yang memberi kekuatan kat i skrg adalah mama, daddy, abg, adeq, abah, mak, my girlfriends(ellie, balqis, lin, aida, kak dilla, kak azi, tini, era) and seseorang yang tnggal jauh dari Malaysia n i knal rapat slama 3thn lebih. dier la my gud listener, always be with me when i was sad n down,dier la my advisor..byk kata2 dier yg memberi smangat dlm idup i..thank u so much dear..besides, i still hoping and wish i and him will be back together and happy ever after..everyday i try to throw away him from my life but i can't coz i really love him so much.btol ckp ustaz kwn dad tuh jgn syg org lebih dr kiter syg diri kiter.nnt merana idup..erm, my false, rite..i kalo syg org mmg akan syg sgt2...now ape jd, i terpaksa tanggung penderitaan and seksaan sorang2..

i takkan berdendam dgn dier if he don't want me anymore. cinta tak boleh dipaksa.i hope he could change and wish him happy with his life.i berserah semua kepada tuhan..if we will meant to be only Allah knows and time will tell.now, everyday i hanya mampu berdoa...Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, jika dia jodoh yang baik utk aku, Kau kekalkan hubungan kami dan satukan hubungan kami dgn ikatan yang sah...Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, jika dia bukan jodoh yang baik utk aku, Kau tlg la aku buang dia dlm atiku dan idupku, dan Kau gantikan dier dgn jodoh yang baik utk aku..Amin Ya Rabbanal-Al-Amin..one more things i would like to share with uol video Jika Aku Jatuh Cinta. video ni mmg cukup meaningful..this is the video link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RJoy6io06Hk

DOMESTIC VIOLENCE - VIOLENCE AGAINST WOMEN

2008-08-01T18:10:00.000-07:00

WHAT IS VIOLENCE AGAINST WOMEN?

Violence against women is about power and control.
Violence against women is a chosen action against a woman or girl child simply because of her gender, simply because she is female.
Violence against women cuts across race, religion, income, class and culture.
Violence Against Women is deeply embedded in all cultures, so much so that millions of women consider it a way of life.

FORMS OF VIOLENCE AGAINST WOMEN

Psychological and emotional abuse

Threats, insults and put-downs can be just as damaging as physical abuse because they endanger a woman's feelings of self-worth and her ability to control her own life.

Social abuse

This form of abuse occurs most frequently in a domestic situation where a woman is kept totally dependent on her partner and isolated from the support of others.

Financial abuse

A woman who is prevented from seeking employment, or who is not allowed to have a bank account or keep any of her income suffers financial abuse. Having no control of money keeps a woman totally dependent and at the whim of others, even for her basic needs.

Sexual abuse

Being forced to do or watch something sexual without the woman's consent, or to have pain inflicted on a woman during a sexual act can constitute sexual abuse.

Physical abuse

Hitting, punching, slapping, biting, kicking, bruising, breaking bones, throwing things and using weapons are obvious examples of physical abuse. The denial of human needs, such as food, water, sleep and even shelter are also forms of physical abuse.

What can I do to help a victim of domestic violence?

As a friend, let her know she is not alone. Battered women feel they don't have anyone to talk to. Speak openly with her about your suspicions and encourage her to talk.
Be a telephone buddy. Women are often isolated and are not allowed to go out.
Read and collect brochures and information to pass on to her. Talk to others. The more you know about this problem the more you can offer to someone in need.
Talk with her about options and help her plan for crisis.
Show belief in her ability to cope with change.
Support her no matter what she decides to do.
Provide a place for her and the children to stay for an afternoon or evening during tense times.
Provide transportation to shelter and safe homes

What can I do as a victim of domestic violence to help myself?

Make an EMERGENCY PLAN
Make a plan of what to and where to go if you are in danger. Tell your children of your plan if they are old enough to understand.
Take your children with you if you can. If you must leave them temporarily, make sure they can join you as soon as possible. See a lawyer as soon as possible about custody.
Whatever your vehicle, make sure it has petrol.
Keep an extra set of keys and emergency numbers in a secret hiding place.
Always keep some money hidden to help you get away.
Take identification, important papers and necessary medication for you and your children.
Keep a list of important phone numbers in the hiding place with your money.
Work out a code word that can be used on the phone with someone you trust if you are in danger .

* No woman deserves violence, ever!

What It Takes to Be a PR Practitioners?

2008-07-27T04:27:00.000-07:00

One of my friend called me last two week to say that he is looking for a new job. He wanted to know what I thought about him entering the world of PR. I laughed, and then I laughed some more. Like many other people, my friend was drawn to PR because, on the surface, it looks like an exciting and easy job. Of course, we know the former to be true sometimes, and the latter to be rarely the case.

PR is an intense and difficult job that can be rewarding and disappointing. It can be exciting, and mind-numbingly boring. PR, more often than not, is misunderstood by people outside of the industry. Increasingly, the lines between PR, marketing and advertising are becoming more blurred, taking the industry into a new direction. In short, once you get below the surface, PR is not what it appears to be from the outside.

To be a PR person, I feel you need to posses a certain skill set that can be broken down into two categories: human skills and professional skills. Human skills include things such as patience and congeniality, while professional skills include the ability to speak publicly and write professionally.

My friend would make a terrible a PR person, and I told him so. He lacks "people skills," and he no longer has the patience required to do sales (his previous job). He also does not handle rejection very well, and his maxim, "I will never kiss [backside] again," certainly won't work in the PR world. I told my friend that he certainly had the professional skills thing down pat but that he lacked some important components on the human side of the equation.

I suggested to look no further than his PR Face2Face series of interviews on his weblog (http://pop-pr.blogspot.com/) to see what some of the PR world's brightest minds have had to say on the subject of what makes a good PR person. I've interspersed quotes from these interviews with my own thoughts.

HUMAN SKILLS:

- Patience: Whether it's waiting to hear back from journalists or producers that you have pitched, or simply understanding that a PR campaign takes time to gain traction and evolve, if you don't have patience, you will never be able to do this job. Now, if we could only get our clients to be so patient!

- Congeniality: Ever met a PR person who comes off like a jerk? I have, and I've noticed that such people don't stay in their jobs too long (unless they work at The White House). If you're not friendly and sociable, why are you in a job that requires you to be so? While we're on the subject, Reuters ran an interesting story this week about business etiquette: http://today.reuters.com/news/newsArticleSearch.aspx?storyID=23944+29-Jun-2005+RTRS&srch=etiquette

- Controlled Aggression: The worst PR people are either too passive or overly aggressive. The middle ground is what I call "controlled aggression," which means you know when to turn on your adrenaline and when to turn it off.

- Critical Thinking: "The most important thing is to think like a journalist." - Ronn Torossian, Founder, President & CEO, 5WPR - Nerves: Be it the nerve to cold-call a reporter on deadline, or the nerve to get up in front of a bank of microphones and disclose bad news, it takes a streak of cold blood to be able to do PR.

- Verbosity and Simplicity: The ability to communicate in grand ways and on simple terms is a must. If you're not comfortable speaking to an audience of white-collar executives as well as to an audience of blue-collar hourly-wage earners, you won't be able to do this job.

- Thirst for Knowledge: The best PR people are people who can put things into context. The ability to take an idea and narrow or broaden it is important when it comes to pitching a story, as well as when it comes to figuring out how to target your story. "If you are not knowledgeable on what is going on today, how do you advise clients or companies on what to do tomorrow?" - Al Golin, Chairman, GolinHarris

- Ethics: "The people have to come to the standard that I value, and draw that ethical line in the sand and never cross it. Be a straight shooter, don't lie. Anyone that is devious in public relations is going to be found out, and will fail." - Howard Rubenstein, President, Rubenstein Associates

PROFESSIONAL SKILLS:

- Writing: You don't have to be a novelist, but if you can't write a decent letter, memo or, most importantly, press release, then you shouldn't be a PR person. Despite the proliferation of email and instant messaging, the ability to communicate via the written word is something lost on many people who have grown up in the electronic age. We've all probably received emails and messages that come off as sarcastic without meaning to be so. There are no shortcuts to writing a professional communication, but more and more I'm seeing press releases and pitches penned by people who appear to have flunked English 101.

- Writing, Part II: "Writing skills are the most difficult thing to find. Once people can write, I feel that pretty much everything else we can teach." - Jeffrey Sharlach, Chairman and CEO, The Jeffrey Group

- Orating: Public speaking is not easy, and it certainly takes most people time to get comfortable in front of a large group of people. Nonetheless, PR people need to be able to articulate their thoughts and their company's story in front of an audience, be it a group of employees or a swarm of media.

- Internet-Enabled: PR takes an immense amount of research, and PR people who don't understand tools such as blogs, search engines and premium search services suffer the consequences. Knowing how to find Google or Technorati is not enough - you need to understand how to utilize these resources as well.

- Multi-Tasking: I don't mean the ability to talk on the phone and play solitaire. If you can't pitch the media, pitch prospective clients, take part in crisis-control initiatives, and help clients formulate a strategy beyond PR, then you're in the wrong game. Specialty PR is fine if you're proven in the field, but a well-rounded PR person can handle everything from sales to client handholding.

The ideal PR person, in my book, is like what baseball scouts call a "five-tool" player: 1) hitting for average, 2) hitting for power, 3) running for speed, 4) arm strength, and 5) fielding ability.

"Five-tool players get the key hits, big home runs, timely stolen bases, they throw out the tying run at the plate and make spectacular defensive plays," Mark Bonavita wrote in The Sporting News back in 1999.

Ask yourself if you're getting the key hits, hitting the big home runs, stealing a timely base, throwing out the runner at the plate, and making spectacular plays in the field. If you're not, it may be time to relearn some PR basics and learn some new tricks. Or, perhaps, think about a new career. I'll be exploring more of "what it takes to be a PR person" in the future columns.

Broken Heart

2008-07-26T14:29:00.000-07:00

HAVE YOU EVER FELT HURT? HAVE YOU EVER FELT PAIN? HAVE YOU EVER FELT LOST? HAVE YOU EVER FELT LIKE GIVING UP? HAVE YOU FELT YOUR HEART BREAKING? All of us have had a broken heart...

Broken hearts are never healed. They haunt us for a lifetime even if we find someone else. Our past teaches us lessons that make us more aware and more human. Why then do we feel so hurt knowing it can only get better?

Breaking up with someone you care about is one of the toughest decisions any of us will ever have to go through. Dealing with the pain and heart break is never easy. We just have to live the days as they are set out and not live in the past.

The Wonderful Holiday

2008-07-26T11:16:00.000-07:00

Eventhough pass a month already I’m back from Malaysia but I still feel and remembered each of the moment when I was in vacation with my family. WOW, definitely, it is such a WONDERFUL holiday that I’ve never feel before. Unfortunately, one thing I feel sad because my younger sister couldn’t join us because she have to take a short course at Uitm Melaka. If she could follow us, our vacation will be more excitement. Without her feel uncompleted! Do u all wanna know where have I being for almost 3 weeks? I’ve been to UK, Scotland and Istanbul, Turkey. So, here I would like to share my amazing vacation with all of u. erm, okey let’s we start with UK.

In UK, I went to my auntie house at High Wycombe. My auntie has stay in UK about 35 years. She is a good cooker especially western food. Yummy, I love her lasagna, lamb chop, roast chicken, potato salad…it makes me fatty and chubby stay at her house. I spend a lot of my time with my honey bunny and sweetie pie niece, Mia Yasmin, 4 years old. Wuarghh, I really miss this girl so much…I can’t wait to see her again when she coming back to Malaysia next year on January. Hah, I forgot to tell u about the weather there. 1st week there I got a bad cold there. I couldn’t adapt with the weather there. I have to wear socks and sweater in the house. But 5 days before going back to Malaysia the weather getting warm there. Alright, let’s continue where other place I went to. I went shopping to Eden, the new shopping complex at High Wycombe. It’s quite big that shopping complex.

Then, I’ve been to Windsor Castle and also to Marlow which is place to picnic and there also can rent a boat. We also went to Arsenal because my brother really wants to see the Emirates Stadium. I and my brother is a big fan of football team Arsenal. I’m quite shock to see the stadium. Totally, it is different with our stadium in Malaysia. It is very huge the Emirates Stadium. Besides, we went to London twice with trains. In London, we went to Kensington Palace (Lady Diana home) and Oxford Street to shopping. Then, we went to Hyde Park, the largest park in the world. We were having lunch at Malaysian Hall. In the hall, I feel like in Malaysia because majority in there is Malaysian people. That moment also I really feel miss my Malaysian food. I have for the lunch - sambal belacan, ikan kembung, sambal tumis udang, ulam-ulam..Uishh, it’s really delicious!

Okay, next my destination is Istanbul, Turkey. At first our plans to go to the Paris or Barcelona but my cousin who work at Travel Agency suggest to go to the Istanbul, Turkey. Wow! Seriously I told u all, Istanbul is a nice and very beautiful country. No regret goes to Istanbul. If I have another opportunity, definitely, I will go there again! My trip to Istanbul is 4 days and 3 nights. I feel it is not enough stay there. I like the people there because they are very friendly. The weather is quite nice and warm.

How about shopping in Istanbul? Hmm…I’ve shop till drop..hehehe. But my dad be a victim to paid the things I’ve shop. There is one big and famous bazaar in the town which called Grand Bazaar. In the Grand Bazaar have 4000 shops. There are many leather products which from good quality till low quality. I’ve bought a leather handbags, shoe, belt and wallet. Besides, we can see there a lot of ceramic products. I’ve stayed at Carlton Hotel and situated in town. So, easier for me to go shopping because is near to the bazaar and other shops. It takes 15 minute walks to the Grand Bazaar. The other interesting about this country is their historical. I’m quite impressed to see their historical building and things. I went to the Blue Mosque, Topkapi etc. the most interesting place is I went to Bosphorus Cruise. In the cruise I’ll see the blue sea and I also can see the building and the bridge. Besides, it can see the Istanbul side Asian and Istanbul side Europe. The last night at Istanbul we went to see a Belly Dance and Cultural Show. I have such a great time and enjoy see the performance. So, I suggest to all of u who has opportunity u all must go to Istanbul, Turkey because it is a wonderful and amazing country!

After going back from Istanbul, we have a rest for 2 days at my auntie house. Then we continue our journey to Scotland. We went there by auntie cars. Uisshhhh, what the long journey.. It takes about 10 hours to Scotland. We make sandwiches, fried rice, snacks, fruits, and hot drinks.

We feel lucky because along the journey the weather is nice. Besides, we don’t lose because we have Tomb (Maps GPS) that guide us to the destination. We went to the east coast of Scotland where is at Elgin. Along the journey, I could see Scotland have a very nice scene nary. The mountain, the yellow heather, the villages, the river, the sheets, cow etc. It is very beautiful and peaceful. At Elgin, we stayed at my auntie friend house, Auntie Rose and Uncle Tom. We stayed at their house 3 days and 2 nights. The weather at Scotland is very cold. Auntie Rose and Uncle Tom bring us to see the beach and the town of Elgin. It is hard to find a halal food at the town. So, my auntie brings 3 halal chickens from Hwycombe to cook at Auntie Rose house. Beside that, we also went to the Mountain Cairngorm. I could see a nice view when at the upper of the mountain. I see ice on top of the mountain. I’m freezing up there! besides, we went to the Walkers Short Bread Factory. This factory is the only one factory produce the short bread in the world. It uses pure butter in each of their products. We get a discount and cheaper price bought the biscuits, fruit cakes etc at this factory.

I feel sad when the moment in time going back to Malaysia and leaved my auntie, my cousin and my honey bunny, Mia Yasmin. Hmm, that is my story and my experienced I would like to share with all of u. Definitely, I have a great time there. But I really miss Malaysia! Even though we at other country, we will still remember our own country. It is right people said, “Hujan emas di negara org, hujan batu di negeri sendiri”….

Yahuu, final semester!

2008-07-20T16:15:00.000-07:00

Hah, i just start a new semester last 2 weeks...oh my god, can't believe it! this is my final semester..so fast time past by...unbelievable the time is so quick. that's why people always said time is golden.i've been 3 years for diploma communication & media studies and 2 years bachelor of communication and media studies majoring in public relation. 5 years already i study..while, many things i pass through either happy or sad in this 5 years..means that i succeed faced it. yahuuu, i will finish my study on november..but i feel so lazy and unsatisfied with 3month holiday. so long left the classes..about 7 month...4month in practical training at Tractors Malaysia then 3 month semester break..so, i still blur in the class because the mood is still thinking on holiday...but i also feel sad because i will end my study at Uitm. after this, definitely, i will miss all my friends, lecturers, faculty, classes...wuargggh...i will be miss every moment when i'm studying at Uitm. "Uitm Di Hatiku".....!!!

Believe it or not...

2008-07-17T23:07:00.000-07:00

True Love by Jennifer S. Boney

When I think of my love for you the wonder of its beauty takes my breath away.
I cannot recall the moment in time it began,
but only the overwhelming feeling of ecstasy it brought to me.
For at that moment I knew happiness.
A happiness I had never known before.
For just the thought of you gave me joy beyond belief.
The thought of being with you and being held by you was my one desire
I knew once we first met none other would ever do, for I knew love.
I knew love as I had never thought possible in this life time.
It is a love of passion and desire.
It is a never-ending need to you, for you, only you.
When I think of my love for you
I realize I now know the true meaning of love.
I will love you as long as this life endures and beyond, for you are my dreams, my realities.
You are my heart
You are my meaning of true love.

LOVE, LOVE, LOVE...Do u believe in love? Is it rite sometime love can bring happiness but sometime love is painful? People can't run away from being in love. So, do I...I also gone through many experienced with LOVE. Erm, yah love makes me crazy...Love makes me blind...Love also make me happy and make me sad..Sometime I feel give up and frustrated in find a true and real love. Then, I realize that it is good to get through feel frustrated with love. It is normal for being hurt once in our life. So, to whom that sad, frust because of LOVE don't think deeply and be too sad..Life must go on ok! Maybe the person is not a right one for u....Ada hikmah & pegang pada jodoh tuhan! I hope I will get my true love and the right person to taking care of me and can love me so much...